i have never been so happy on a friday-
seriously.
at first i too thought it was the end result
of one of my quirky food concoctions from
the fnn lab-
fruit apple salad and spicy tuna
toppings and chunks of potato no less
as the piece de la resistance of the fresh fruit
salad-

but it turned out to be the blessing of a
beautiful friday instead. ^^

i am so tired- every cell in my body has
just been pushed to its very limits and boundaries-
can you hear their piteous cries for sleep?

but i shall unjustly and sadistically torture
myself by ignoring them
muahahahahas
dont you just love challenges?

hominahominahomina-
my o level chinese oral is tomorrow~!

but i will not let myself be stressed!
stressed desserts
desserts stressed!
hahahahas

ping shi bu shao xiang
ling shi bao fo jiao-
dang wo ren wei zi ji yi jing gou chen shu shi,
chai fa xian le-
wo qi shi shi na me de you zi-

oh yes and-
happy birthday to sweet pea! (sweet fee!)
hahahahahas
zhu ni chen ji you yi, xue ye jing bu, shen ti jian kang!
hahahahas had a blast today!! ^^

the enigmatic professor was incredibly altruistic,
despite his fellow peers apathy and constant vallidation of his
diagnosis on the mysteries of

Life.

my godd.

i finally know what the presence of God
feels like!

it was so strong- it was like being in this
constantly swirling aura of thickly-spun honey,
sweetly twirling from the top of my head
and winding to a soft crescendo at my feet.

i felt like i was in a golden cocoon.

and what was even more startling-
i could actually feel slightly,
this intense aura swirling away to
engulf other individuals around
the church auditorium!

like a glowing candle-
awakening hearts dulled by the
evills of an ungodly world,
to rekindle the love and passion-
the everlasting fire within.

i wonder if this is some sort of image
i have subconsciously painted into my
mind-
or not? whatabeautiful dream.

wrongwrongwrong!!

the previous blog was SuPpOSed
to be a Happy Blogg!

ahh wells * shakes head*
i just dont noe the limitls of my
intelligence and potential sometimes-

hahahahahs

oh yes- and Happy Birthday to Vinson!
thanks for being such a great pal-
forever i shall remember you as the
green tea friend! ^^

muahahahahas
one more blessed day to school
and here i am typin out a blog instead of
finishing what god-forsaken homework i have left-

ahwellls. =)

the small ones are always the first to go.
white or black-
no one cares.
War?
No, simply a game to be won.

fluidly as one, they surge forward-
relentless in their killings
yet their loss is so much greater-
itsasifthey throw themselvesuponthose spears.
sacrificing and paying dearly for some foolhardy order-
dying so that others might live.

can they even think for themselves?

their expressions blank on those
cold, solemn little statues and
such pure, smooth enamel -
but what of the churning feelings inside?


To fight for such a worthless cause
To fight a war that never ends.

chess.

i realised many things about myself today.

some were good, some were bad-
but i m proud of myself for being able to
acknowledge my strengths and my flaws.

and from today onwards i shall have a NEW
mindset-

i CAN and WILL VANQUISH my inner DEMONS!

instead of my old one-

i can CHOOSE to listen to both GOOD and BAD.

im feeling a slight tingle, but that could just be
my stomach disagreeing with the whole
orange i just ate.

tres refreshing, just like my new motto!! ^^

a little blogthings quiz i did-

You have a quick mind,
a gift for persuasion,
and a sharp sense of humor.
You have both the drive and people skills
to be a very successful leader.

But while you may be biased
toward your own point of view,
you are always honest, fair, and ethical.
With friends: You are outgoing and
open to anyone who might want
to talk to you

In love: You are picky but passionate

hmmm. very true.
hahahahahahs =)

i wont know the answers if
i dont have the questions.

said that to my chemistry teacher today
and suddenly felt a philosophical twang.
and et voila!
inspiration gained. =)

i love my chemistry teacher manns-
she s wonderful!

hmmm i think i ve also found the solution
to all my problems and stress.

sleep!
slept much earlier than usual last night
and found that my natural perpective of
life was regained. if anybody hears me
saying i ll be up late again at night,
slap me.
but not too hard please. =)

oh yes-also went on a fast today
for the first time! i wasnt sure how long
i d have to fast until God himself sent some
divine intervention- my sweet cousin gladys!
and then she told me tt when she fasts
she misses an entire meal. so tts what i did-
i missed breakfast! aint easy my friend=
hahahas

and just a lil fact here, i broke my fast in style-
a single cube of mrs woo's imported turkish
delight! woohoos! hahahas

my sis s going for red cross camp today-
gonna miss her and her little slightly disturbing
antics till friday! =)

gambate sista!!!!

thanks to ah fee *testingnickname
onetwothreee...
i have learnt how to listen and talk to
God!! its really useful cuz now i noe
i can build a better and closer relationship
with God!! wheees =)

in fact, i feel as if i am speaking to him now.
what a strange feeling.

here i am, typing all these fat font words,
and inside i feel as if i am also having
a mini conversation with the Almighty himself!

its really inexplicable.
its as if someone turned my
whole day into a itty bitty movie,
moi as the heroine o course =)
and God was watching it, and
talking to me about it!

right now hes checking out the
grotesquely huge pile of powdered
parmesean i am unabashedly
pouring onto my meat lovers' pizza.

he thinks it cute. ^^ hohos
and no he doesnt think im a glutton. =)

i could hug him to bits. ^^

her eyes were closed-
a slow sweet smile
a flash of red-
and her bright eyes dulled.

she bore no more grief
desperation no more
but instead left behind
A haunted murderer-
evermore.

as black darkness faded
to mere wisps of smoke
the wretched man startled-
as the rays of dawn broke.

what have i done-
What is to be of me
Oh Jesus, Oh Lord-
how could this be?

remorseful, accursed sinner-
what a lesson thou hath learnt
and the many more to come
when thou ran into hiding-
and never returned.

feeling so wistful.
if i could ever have a special ability-
i d love to have the power to heal.

and not just physically, but mentally too! =)
sorta like wolverine except without the
meat slicers. hahahahas-

id be able to heal the world.



somebody slap me back to reality.

im ready whenever you are, Lord.

if a liar said he lied all the time,
he wouldnt be lying, now would he? 0.o

gotchaa.

ohmygoodness.
Chef-tess Nigella rawks to the max!
she is my muse, i tell you.
get this-
she actually cooks with pristine white clothing that
totally screams of Giorgio Armani crispiness-
and cooking even if it means
slicing strawberries in a light turquoise night gown!

a night gooown. how many chefs are there who
cook in their night gowns.
try not to think Jamie Oliver, hehehs ^^

and her accent is so el natural. Think soothing
Latino American with a splash of posh British.
I think that was the first outstanding feature i d
noticed about her actually =)

and her presentation is perfect.
Fresh mango chutney salad topped with
sweet chilli slices and blanched nuts never
looked so good. nor ripened summer peaches
with sweet honey a la vintage cranberry wine sauce.

i guess there must something i see inside her that
i cant see in me.
that sophisticated air of confidence?
that calm and serene maturity?
the ability to cook AND look fantastic at all times?

Lynn a la prime chef-
coming right up! ^^

check.this.out. i actually stopped blogging
for four days! i am so IN CONTROL mans. ^^
and whats that line?
theworldismy oyster. =)
and the reason for breaking my blog fast?
just had to talk about the latest chinese paper -
wo bao! itsfree. andit RAWKS!
i can alr feel the love and appreciation
for our government and country.
i mean, WHICH OTHER island actually
sets aside funds to give out free papers to
its estimated 4 million population?
free english AND chinese papers? =)
well, it probably comes from the grotesque
tax funds the average Singaporean forks out,
but isnt this a investment and venture worthwhile?
hopefully the government could set aside
malay and tamil papers too to facilitate the
whole of Singapore, if we dont completely kick
out the need to buy newspapers by then! =)
Singapore rawks. *patriotic moment!*

i also realised i like to hold negotiation conferences
whenever my brain is unoccupied.
A: $900million.
B: *smiles indulgently.
A:$900 million is my last offer, Mr Kellington.
B: Mr Ledrick, id assumed you were joking.
A: i assure you now, Mr Kellington, i am deadly serious.
Merchwhile Industries is not to be trifled with, nor i.
A: Undoubtedly i trust your impeccable sense of character,
but i cannot say the same for your sense of reason.
$900million? you are forgetting that i am the customer,
Ledrick, and i am not amused.
B: *falters slightly, but Mr Kellington, a quarter of our
stock is more than enoug-
A: Waste your breath no longer, i take my leave now.
B: Wait! Stop! Id meant no insul-
A: Good day, gentlemen. *to board of shocked directors
B: No!! Please, -

*curtains fade.